Random "daily" thoughts...

Sunday night : I am watching the film "I Am Legend" with Will Smith.There is one moment when the main character is all alone and has no one to say HELLO to.At that point,i was thinking that i couldn't stand it!Or maybe...i do?So,HELLO to all of you...

Later that night,i finished the book "The Hound of the Baskervilles" by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle and i kept in my mind something that Sherlock Holmes' best friend,Dr John H. Watson said : "what a curse for a man to not have a woman to mourn for him".Hopefully,i won't be SO cursed...

Around that time,His Beatitude the Archbishop of Athens and all Greece, Christodoulos died!You can read more here(in Greek,English or Serbian).Fare well!!!


Monday morning : My sister in law gave me her motorbike for a couple of days,so i can move easily in the city!I am driving again and i am very happy!Thank you,Sonia!

While i was driving singing "Getting away with it" by James,i realized that everyone else in Thessaloniki is singing...Greek songs!Hell no,i don't like bouzoukia and i can't stand Greek music!

The rest of the day,i was thinking about friends and friendship,while i was working!And then,Mr T. came!He said it all,so simple,yet so wise:"There are no friends,but you should be a friend with everyone!"Is he right?So different opinions but not even a "friendly" one!!!

That night i tried to watch "Pan's Labyrinth" but couldn't make it!My heavy and tired eyes closed,trying to make my mind forget my loneliness...


Tuesday : Working,the whole day,feeding people who are eating my soul,hour by hour,day by day!Getting in my mind,eating my thoughts,drinking my feelings and sucking my hopes and dreams.Thank God,there is an end,in a year or so!(if you want a piece of me come and get it,the sooner the better...)

That night i spent three hours trying to find a song "the litany of the saint",by Dr Jones(apparently i don't recall the name right,because i had no success in finding it).If anyone has it,please mail it to me(or give it to me somehow).Thanks in advance!!!

Something good happened in the meanwhile!I saw something in my facebook :"Former Republic Fm members are getting ready for their next step...".Yes,yes,yes!!!

Wednesday : A friend from my college years,one of the people i was afraid that i had lost,called me to prove me wrong!People and friends don't forget you from one day to another,even if you think so!Thanks for reminding me that ,L.!!!

Now(03:40 am) : As my good friend L. told me,"life is not in here...life is out there!!!".Now i finally agree with him that my life is not
so starting from Saturday,i am going to spend more time "out there"!!!

Conclusion : Excuse me,but the last ten (maybe more) days i am in a weird mood,working,being and feeling lonely and missing many things and especially people!I guess it's just a period,a phase that i am going through and it will end soon,because...I SAY SO!Just be patient!Kisses to all of you!!!

Help...wanted...?

(This post is dedicated to my friend xrysopsaraki for the small "fight" we had yesterday.)



Since yesterday morning,i had many thoughts in my head about help and friends.Now i find it so hard to write it all,i am very tired and it's too late!There are two thoughts though that i have to share with you :

A.Many people believe that the ones who are always willing to help (their friends or even strangers) are the ones who need help themselves!I can't decide if i agree or not!!!

B.Yesterday was one of the many times that i found myself in a bad position,an argument or even a fight just because i wanted to help(or thought that i HAVE to help).Is it so bad to just offer others your help?Does someone have to wait until he is asked to help?Am i crazy for thinking that if everybody helped everyone,this would be a wonderful world?Does help...?(i have so many questions,but i'm sorry...can't keep my eyes open no more...)

The world would be better definitely and life would be easier if questions like these were simply answered...I don't know why but i have a bitter sweet taste in my mouth after these thoughts.Maybe i just have to pay a visit to my dentist and take my "wisdom" teeth out...Kisses to all,take care...

Bitter Sweet Symphony Lyrics

Oh,father...my father!!!

"Father":something that every man should be at least once in his life if he wants to feel complete,but for me is a role that i don't want to play in my life,a being that i am not looking forward to become,although i am almost sure i will be...(if i am not already,by "accident" and without any knowledge!!!). ;)

The more time i spend with my father,after 9 years of my absence,the more i think that he is the typical Balkan-Greek father.This is how you will know that your father is one too:

-He never told you about the birds and the bees.
-He calls you a "dummy" for not knowing how to do something he can't either.
-You had to break off a tree branch from your back yard, so your father could whoop your ass with it.
-He threatens you with a slipper or a newspaper and tells you "if i catch you..." but never does.
-Before school (when he was young) every morning he had to look after the sheep, milk the cows, gather all hay, feed the animals etc...
-He had to walk to school barefoot in the snow, 5km uphill both ways. And over rocks.
-He expects you to study or "hit the books" every waking hour that he's home, and he expects nothing less than an "A".
-He talks to you and every other word he calls you is stupid or malaka...

-Duck tape is your father's only tool next to using a kitchen knife as a screwdriver.
-He wears black socks to work everyday.
-You work out six days a week, but somehow you dad kicks your ass in like five seconds after he comes home from a thirteen hour day from the bakery/factory/food business.
-You can hear your father snoring from across the street.


-He wears dress socks with tennis shoes.
-He claims not to be a racist but insists that Greeks invented everything.
-He thinks he knows everything about the world today.
-He usually doesn't wear under arm deodorant because it could cause cancer.
-He thinks that the phone is bugged.
-He washes the garage floor with the hose wearing cheap criss-cross brown flip-flops.

-He carries around enough money to buy a car.
-When you need something your father asks right away "Why do you need that?" and then tells you "This is the shit you spend all your money on!".And then he buys it for you.
-Every time your family needs to buy a household item, your father asks the salesperson "how much for cash" and continues to bargain down for at least half an hour.

-When you go on vacation your father spends all his time playing tavli at the hotel.
-He does a running commentary through a movie and he thinks he knows everything that's going to happen even though he has never seen the movie.
-He thinks everyone from China has a black belt in karate.
-In some occasions he tells you not to drink so much, but he drinks non stop.

-He looks at an old photo album and sees himself young and says "wow,i used to be so handsome" and your mom tells "please,stop laying".
-He tells you "when i was your age..." and then forgets what was his point...

My point is that i love my father...and you should too!
As for this post,i am only jogging!I found this text here and is about my friends Serbians!Take a look,enjoy and don't forget...love your parents!!!

Egnatia street...

After a "movie-dinner-nice conversation" evening with a good girlfriend,i found myself walking around 3:30 am on Egnatia street,in the center of Thessaloniki.


I was whispering the song Xanomai while walking and observing around...a young couple was laughing loud while chasing each other on the other side of the street,a middle aged woman had just opened her mini market and was dusting off some potato chips bags(i didn't know people do that),an old man was walking beside me,swearing about the Greek government,the young people and the new generation,some cars where driving,taking people to their early morning jobs or to their homes,full of alcohol,smoke and music...


It was then,when i realized that i have missed the late night walks,the late night life of Thessaloniki with all the funny,ugly,beloved or stupid acts-people-things someone can see or meet in this city...and then...

A taxi came by.I took it...came home,in my cell,in my cave,in my loneliness again...and it was late..."Shit,i have to sleep...i have so many things to do tomorrow..and i have to start studying again..." i thought...

Well,i didn't do any of what i was thinking about when i fell in sleep..But the only thing that i am going right now to do is..take another walk on Egnatia street!!!

No more sex talk!!!

I am not a






and this blog is not a




and because i want to avoid any






from now on there will be




so you shouldn't even ask me if there is


and i mean no more






At least,there will be no talking about sex any more...It's time for some looove!!!


Label: Sex stories...the end!!!

Play with me...(or our last night...)

Here i am ,ready for the new year!I just promised to myself,a couple of days ago that i will get rid of my f. buddies!

Why do i feel like shit then,today?Why did i have to get with her for one more night?Why did i have to refresh the memory of her smell?Why did i have to feel the heat of her body once again?Why...why...why?I could go on for hours just questioning myself but no answer!

Is it because i am just used to it?Is it because it's a part of me that i can't get rid of so easily?Is it because i am afraid of something else?

A friend of mine is minding the gap,another is feeling sorry for a lost kitten (fare well,Lucky) and i am feeling as a game machine,as a joystick,needed as much as useless,empty as much as full (of what?cables?),strong as much as weak,senseless as much as sensitive,mature as much as "raw"...

Maybe this is what i really am!I am a joystick so,please,play with me,get as much joy as you can out of me and then throw me away!At least,i will be sure that i have done something good,that i have given some pleasure to someone,even though i didn't get any back...just as a joystick!!!:



P.S.The following song is more of her type,but i believe that it describes our last night...enjoy...



Keyshia Cole Lyrics
Last Night Lyrics

Personal notes,thoughts,decisions for the new year (or maybe...Happy Bliss Year) !!!

Another day,another week,another month,another year...Another Dr_Pako or the same,old one?Let's see...
This year i would like to:
-get angry rarely and only for things and people who are worth it (or deserve it)
-get tired more often by doing things that matter,working for people who appreciate it and helping people who dare to ask for help (you know me...i am willing to help everyone...)
-get pleased easily,with small things and little acts
-hold on with quiting smoking (it is a year since i smoked my last cigarette)
-get rid of my fuck buddies...ooops,i don't mean that...but i am sure that i will try
-get a woman to love me...actually,get a woman to love...i believe that a man has to love,even though he doesn't get some love back
-work,study,think...became a better person...a better friend...and an even better doctor
-get my "old body" back..i am going to lose the 10 kilos i gained during the army and exercise in the gym at least 4 times/week
-socialize,get to know real people,not through a monitor and internet
-as always,be a kind person and help other to become nice and kind
-go often to Bliss cafe for a coffee,drop by for a "good morning-good evening" wish and some nice,easy going chit-chat or some serious discussion!(i hope i am welcome)
So much for now,although i am sure that the following days i will fill in some thoughts..As for now,i can tell you only this:find some time and visit Bliss cafe bar(Ermou 51,Aristotelous,Thessaloniki)and believe me..you will find your self lost in deep thoughts,warm feelings and loveful decisions for the new year...So,Happy Bliss Year to all!See you soon,kisses!!!